So the last week or so I have been thinking a lot about what would drive a person to take their life. I know this is a depressing topic but bear with me. About a week ago I was on the LRT home from Institute Choir practice. I was sitting in the front car of the train a few rows back from the driver area. We were coming in to a station and starting to slow down, when the driver jumps on the breaks. All I heard from the driver was "He jumped. I hit him. He is under the train." It is weird to think that just a few short seconds can change someone's life forever. That driver will never be the same. That victims' family will never be the same.
It makes you wonder what is so bad in someone's life that the only chance they think to escape is to end their life. Was this person's life so devoid of love that they had no one to turn to? Did something happen recently in their life that was out of their control that caused them to take this kind of action? So I got to thinking how can I make sure that no one feels unloved and forgotten by me. I want everyone that I meet to feel like they are important to me. I know that love can only go so far. In the end love is not enough for some of these people. No matter how much you show them your love it might not be enough to make them not do the unthinkable.
I hope that because of this incident that I will be more a little more kind to everyone I meet. Those people that I meet on the train or at the store are my spiritual brothers and sisters. Jesus Christ wishes us to be His hands, and lift those who are heavy laden and burdened with all manner of woes. In the word of Elder Jeffery R. Holland from October General Conference, "Rich or poor, we are to “do what we can” when others are in need." and "I also know that although I may not be my brother’s keeper, I am my brother’s brother, and “because I have been given much, I too must give." These statements really hit me hard. IT reminded me that I have a lot more to give in this life than what I thought. I am responsible for the happiness of the people that I can come in contact with. And they always say you never know what a simple smile or a simple hello can do to change someone's day. I know that I have had days brightened because someone simply said "Hi, Amy."
I wish that we can all be a little kinder and even though it may not solve the worlds problems it can solve someone's problems. In the words of Mother Theresa, " “What we do is nothing but a drop in the ocean,” she would say on another occasion. “But if we didn’t do it, the ocean would be one drop less [than it is].”(Elder Holland, Oct 2014). Let us all try and be a little bit more kind, caring, and compassionate. You may never know the results of one small act of kindness. But one small act can change the world of someone in need.
Wednesday, 8 October 2014
Saturday, 13 September 2014
My Scripture Goal
So I have started a new goal. I wish to complete it by Christmas. I decided that I have the goal to complete the Book Of Mormon by Christmas. I will have to read 5 pages a day. I have already read to 1 Nephi. I have learned so much already. I have been reminded of the great many tender mercies that appear in my life. He truly watches over me and wants me to do my best. I also have realized the faith that is required in this lift. Faith should be what drives us. Faith should be the centre of our universe. Faith must in a way drive us awake every morning and help us finish our day. It must allow us to take steps into the darkness. We must have the faith to trust in his plan for us. And more that I am willing to put His will before mine.
I have seen a change in myself. I have been seeing and feeling the spirit return to me in my life. I have seen a change in how I treat people. I have seen a great change in my life. I have been able to be more willing to open my mouth to share the gospel. Sharing the gospel is not as hard as I thought. And it is true all I need to do is to open my mouth.
I have has a few choice experiences the last few days.Some co-workers and I were talking about family history, and they mentioned that they were stuck. So I told them of familysearch.org, and that it is a free site through the church. They were so excited and happy that I would share that with them. Then I was at a networking event last night. And I was able to share my beliefs regarding familes.
I see the changes that focusing on the scriptures has made in my life. And in just three short days. I will try my best to keep my scripture experiences up to date. I can feel myself changing and becoming a new creature in Christ.
I have seen a change in myself. I have been seeing and feeling the spirit return to me in my life. I have seen a change in how I treat people. I have seen a great change in my life. I have been able to be more willing to open my mouth to share the gospel. Sharing the gospel is not as hard as I thought. And it is true all I need to do is to open my mouth.
I have has a few choice experiences the last few days.Some co-workers and I were talking about family history, and they mentioned that they were stuck. So I told them of familysearch.org, and that it is a free site through the church. They were so excited and happy that I would share that with them. Then I was at a networking event last night. And I was able to share my beliefs regarding familes.
I see the changes that focusing on the scriptures has made in my life. And in just three short days. I will try my best to keep my scripture experiences up to date. I can feel myself changing and becoming a new creature in Christ.
Monday, 25 August 2014
Everyone has demons!
Since the passing of Robin Williams I have been thinking a lot of different forms of depression and how extraverts feel. I am a extreme extrovert. I classify myself as more than a social butterfly. I crave being around people. Sometimes I think that it is a addiction. When I am around people I feed. I am social and as more people I know and care about, or new people that I have just met are there I get more and more excited. I like being the centre of attention, It makes me feel loved, appriciated, needed, and wanted. I love making people feel like they matter and that I want them around, that their matters to someone.
When Robin Williams passed it made me think about how I feel when I get finished in a social setting. I am so drained when I get home. I feel like I have given everything to the people that I inereact with. It makes me feel like I have nothing for myself. That I was so busy being a friend to those around me that no one was a friend to me. I lie in my bed before I fall asleep and think: "Did I really make a difference in people's lives?", "Do I really have any friends, or are these just people that have to tolerate me?", "Does the efforts I make to get to know people better and listen truly matter?", "Do I really matter?". And of course being a hormonal girl, after these questions and more go through my head I start crying.
It is hard sometimes being such a out going person who does not have a bubble even if I wanted one.
I got to thinking those of us who are extraverts have more inner problems than we like to admit.I do not like to admit my inner demons and problems to others let alone myseld. But becuase I always like to be around people and help those around me. I know that there are times when I forego alone time becuase I want and crave to be around people. I forget that I need to decompress with what I am going through and experiencing on a day to day basis. It doesn't help though that I am qutie stubborn and like doing things my own way. I blame being the sixth out of eight children. Darn independance.
But in the end even though I do feel alone and afraid, I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I know that no matter what emotion I go through that someone will always be there for me to cheer me up. Whether that is a dear friend, family, or My Father in Heaven, and Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. There are times when all of us get depressed and lonely. And some people have no idea who to turn to. They feel lost and confused and that no ones care. They want to run and hide from their problems or from others and some just plain give up.
I do not understand dibilitating depression. Where you feel like there is no point even of living. But I understand the depression of feeling like you are completly and utterly alone. I know because I have been there. I feel like sometimes no one understands what I am going through or who I am. I feel like sometimes I am screaming at people in other ways than verbal that I need help but no one is listening. No one cares. No one hears. No one sees.
But I know that someone is there even though we cannot see Him. This scipture has been on my mind a lot since I started thinking about this:
Isaiah 54:7-10
7 For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee.
When Robin Williams passed it made me think about how I feel when I get finished in a social setting. I am so drained when I get home. I feel like I have given everything to the people that I inereact with. It makes me feel like I have nothing for myself. That I was so busy being a friend to those around me that no one was a friend to me. I lie in my bed before I fall asleep and think: "Did I really make a difference in people's lives?", "Do I really have any friends, or are these just people that have to tolerate me?", "Does the efforts I make to get to know people better and listen truly matter?", "Do I really matter?". And of course being a hormonal girl, after these questions and more go through my head I start crying.
It is hard sometimes being such a out going person who does not have a bubble even if I wanted one.
I got to thinking those of us who are extraverts have more inner problems than we like to admit.I do not like to admit my inner demons and problems to others let alone myseld. But becuase I always like to be around people and help those around me. I know that there are times when I forego alone time becuase I want and crave to be around people. I forget that I need to decompress with what I am going through and experiencing on a day to day basis. It doesn't help though that I am qutie stubborn and like doing things my own way. I blame being the sixth out of eight children. Darn independance.
But in the end even though I do feel alone and afraid, I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I know that no matter what emotion I go through that someone will always be there for me to cheer me up. Whether that is a dear friend, family, or My Father in Heaven, and Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. There are times when all of us get depressed and lonely. And some people have no idea who to turn to. They feel lost and confused and that no ones care. They want to run and hide from their problems or from others and some just plain give up.
I do not understand dibilitating depression. Where you feel like there is no point even of living. But I understand the depression of feeling like you are completly and utterly alone. I know because I have been there. I feel like sometimes no one understands what I am going through or who I am. I feel like sometimes I am screaming at people in other ways than verbal that I need help but no one is listening. No one cares. No one hears. No one sees.
But I know that someone is there even though we cannot see Him. This scipture has been on my mind a lot since I started thinking about this:
Isaiah 54:7-10
7 For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee.
8 In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the Lord thy Redeemer.
9 For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wroth with thee, nor rebuke thee.
10 For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith the Lord that hath mercy on thee.
This scripture teaches a very important principle. We may at times feel lost and unloved but there is someone who loves us. And most importantly, His kindness will not depart from us. He will always be there even though we may not see Him. I was reminded of his love and forgiviness this morning
We can all be healed through the help of our Lord and Savior. He is always there for us evenif we think no one understands the depth of our pain and anguish.
Bad things and sad things happeb in this life. It is just part of human life. People give and want to curl up in a ball when bad things happen. I know at times I want to blame God, and say "Why are you doing this to me?" He allows trials to happen in our lives so we can learn and grow. Without trials, trubulations and temptations we would never grow. We would never become better. We would never improve.
We were all shocked by the passing of Robin Williams, who I know I loved in every single movie he ever did. My favorites "What Dreams May Come", "Patch Adams", and of course "Hook." But he had demons that he thought were unsurmountable. That no one could help him with. So let us make sure that we are trying every day to make this world a little better of a place, and really reach down and help someone who is in a personal gutter. All we must do is open our eyes and our hearts and our spirit will do the rest, "Thoughts and ideas can change the world." (Dead Poets Society). WE can change the world if we help someone every day.
In closing in the words of Robin Williams in "Jack":
"Please don't owrry so much. Because in the end, none of ud have very long on this Earth. Life is fleeting. And if you're ever distressed, cast your eyes to the summersky when the stars are strung across the velverty night. Andwhen a shooting star streaks through the blackness, turning night into day...make a wish and think of me. Make your life spectacular."
This scripture teaches a very important principle. We may at times feel lost and unloved but there is someone who loves us. And most importantly, His kindness will not depart from us. He will always be there even though we may not see Him. I was reminded of his love and forgiviness this morning
We can all be healed through the help of our Lord and Savior. He is always there for us evenif we think no one understands the depth of our pain and anguish.
Bad things and sad things happeb in this life. It is just part of human life. People give and want to curl up in a ball when bad things happen. I know at times I want to blame God, and say "Why are you doing this to me?" He allows trials to happen in our lives so we can learn and grow. Without trials, trubulations and temptations we would never grow. We would never become better. We would never improve.
We were all shocked by the passing of Robin Williams, who I know I loved in every single movie he ever did. My favorites "What Dreams May Come", "Patch Adams", and of course "Hook." But he had demons that he thought were unsurmountable. That no one could help him with. So let us make sure that we are trying every day to make this world a little better of a place, and really reach down and help someone who is in a personal gutter. All we must do is open our eyes and our hearts and our spirit will do the rest, "Thoughts and ideas can change the world." (Dead Poets Society). WE can change the world if we help someone every day.
In closing in the words of Robin Williams in "Jack":
"Please don't owrry so much. Because in the end, none of ud have very long on this Earth. Life is fleeting. And if you're ever distressed, cast your eyes to the summersky when the stars are strung across the velverty night. Andwhen a shooting star streaks through the blackness, turning night into day...make a wish and think of me. Make your life spectacular."
Tuesday, 24 June 2014
Who would of thunk it?!!
So I know that I have not written in a while. I have had quite the busy life. But this past week I was down in Mesa, Arizona. While I was down there I had a few different experiences that helped me come to a very interesting conclusion. While I was in Arizona, I was able to go to two different LDS Temples, the Mesa and Gilbert Temples. These Houses are truly where heaven meets earth.
I was able to spend time contemplating my life and the experiences I have had. In the last five years I have had quite a few interesting experiences. I have gotten mad at My Father in Heaven for the things which have happened in my life. Both in and out of my control. I at times had felt that he was ignoring me or just did not care what was going on in my life. That he was just going to allow one thing and then another just turn into a rock slide. I felt at times that my life was hurtling down a mountain with no way to stop. I was reminded in these two sacred buildings that My Father had not forgotten me. That I have blessings ahead of me that I do not even understand yet. That my potential is everlasting and eternal. I realized that the experiences that I am going through will help me in my life to become the Daughter that He wants me to be.
I was also able to get in contact with some friends of a friend. They are all graduated with teaching jobs. And so in a way I felt a little out of place and uncomfortable. I felt like education was for nothing. But then the Spirit spoke to my heart and reassured me. He said "Peace be unto your soul. You are doing what you are supposed to be doing. You are in Edmonton right now because you are needed." In that moment I realized that just because I do not have my dream job or am traveling the world. But I am in Edmonton because He needs me to be here. He guided my path. He wanted to "Lead me to heights that are new." I wanted to go to Korea to go teach english, and then to England, but that was just not in the cards. Then I moved to Lethbridge where I needed to be for a time as well. But then Heavenly Father lead me to Edmonton.
This section of the puzzle that we call life is coming into view. I can see that specific section. And it is beautiful. It is exactly what I wanted it to be. And more important it is was he wanted it to be. He knows who I am and he knows what I must learn to return to Him. He has guided my steps. He is the master of my life.
And now I know that it does not matter what I want my life to be. In the end my life must become His. His life must be reflected through me. If I am willing to follow His promptings He will lead me on the past that will bring me the most joy and the most peace. And I know that my trials are not over. And that there will be a lot more challenges in my life. But I know that His plan is the right plan.
I am also grateful for the knowledge of the next step of my life. A few weeks ago I met with a lady oat the University of Calgary in the Social Work program. For about a year I thought that I wanted to do Occupational Health and Safety. But I have realized that it is social work is what I want to do. I want to help people on a more personal level. I want to help people get through the parts of their puzzle that are difficult to put together. I know this is the next step of my life because when I got out of this meeting I felt a peace about my decision.
I know that Heavenly Father is in the details of my life. He has a life of joy planned for me. It is up to me to follow that path.
I was also able to get in contact with some friends of a friend. They are all graduated with teaching jobs. And so in a way I felt a little out of place and uncomfortable. I felt like education was for nothing. But then the Spirit spoke to my heart and reassured me. He said "Peace be unto your soul. You are doing what you are supposed to be doing. You are in Edmonton right now because you are needed." In that moment I realized that just because I do not have my dream job or am traveling the world. But I am in Edmonton because He needs me to be here. He guided my path. He wanted to "Lead me to heights that are new." I wanted to go to Korea to go teach english, and then to England, but that was just not in the cards. Then I moved to Lethbridge where I needed to be for a time as well. But then Heavenly Father lead me to Edmonton.
This section of the puzzle that we call life is coming into view. I can see that specific section. And it is beautiful. It is exactly what I wanted it to be. And more important it is was he wanted it to be. He knows who I am and he knows what I must learn to return to Him. He has guided my steps. He is the master of my life.
And now I know that it does not matter what I want my life to be. In the end my life must become His. His life must be reflected through me. If I am willing to follow His promptings He will lead me on the past that will bring me the most joy and the most peace. And I know that my trials are not over. And that there will be a lot more challenges in my life. But I know that His plan is the right plan.
I am also grateful for the knowledge of the next step of my life. A few weeks ago I met with a lady oat the University of Calgary in the Social Work program. For about a year I thought that I wanted to do Occupational Health and Safety. But I have realized that it is social work is what I want to do. I want to help people on a more personal level. I want to help people get through the parts of their puzzle that are difficult to put together. I know this is the next step of my life because when I got out of this meeting I felt a peace about my decision.
I know that Heavenly Father is in the details of my life. He has a life of joy planned for me. It is up to me to follow that path.
Monday, 21 April 2014
I love power of the Priesthood
So the other night I cried myself to sleep. I had not done that in a very long time. I had so much that just seemed to be going wrong with my life. I was overwhelmed, scarred, tired, lost and definately confused. I felt like Joseph Smith and Job and that God had forsaken me. D&C 121:1-6 as stated below was exactly that way I felt.
These last while I have been living with my brother and helping him out with his kids. I went from being a single 27 year old with being able to do whatever I wwanted when ever I wanted to having two young kids who need my love and watch care. Because of being an aunt since I was 11, two younger siblings, a ed degree and working in children facilities that I would be ready for what laid ahead.
Man, was I wrong. It is completely different from babysitting, or working in a day care. You have to catter to their every need. I am walking dead on my feet from being up since five because of work, and then coming home to clean the house and cook their meal and all I want to do is go to chill and watch TV or read a book, and I can't, I have to put the needs of my family first.
But as I was crying myself to sleep I found myself crying to God saying "Why have you forgotten me? What have I done to deserve this life? I have do not know what I am doing? Do you listen to my countless and endless prayers? Are you there? Do you love me? Will I ever find someone who will love me for me?" And much much more.
Yesterday I decided I was going to find someone from my bishopric to give me a preisthood blessing. Two members of my bishopric did me the honor. And in that blessing I received the exact answers I was looking for. Through the power of the priesthood I was reminded that I am loved by a Eternal Being. I was reminded that I am wanted and needed, and that He is aware of what I am going through. I was told that I will be blessed for my sacrifice and that I am where I am supposed to be right now. Much more that was said in the blessing that is of great significance to me right now.
I was also surrounded by His all encompassing and overwhelming love. I felt His love wrap around me and speak to me that everything will be alright. That I am loved and needed and that He is aware of what I am going through in my life. He answered my fervent prayers and healed my broken heart from the night before. I have a renewed testimony that He does in fact listen to my constant prayers.
D&C 121:7-8, leap to mind with what I am feeling right now:
7 My son,a peace be unto thy soul; thine b adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a c small moment;
2 a How long shall thy hand be stayed, and thine eye, yea thy pure eye, behold from the eternal heavens the wrongs of thy people and of thy servants, and thine ear be penetrated with their cries?
3 Yea, O Lord, a how long shall they suffer these wrongs and unlawful b oppressions, before thine heart shall be softened toward them, and thy bowels be moved with c compassion toward them?
4 O Lord God a Almighty, maker of b heaven, earth, and seas, and of all things that in them are, and who controllest and subjectest the devil, and the dark and benighted dominion of Sheol—stretch forth thy hand; let thine eye pierce; let thy c pavilion be taken up; let thy d hiding place no longer be covered; let thine ear be inclined; let thine e heart be softened, and thy bowels moved with compassion toward us.
5 Let thine a anger be kindled against our enemies; and, in the fury of thine heart, with thy b sword c avenge us of our wrongs.
These last while I have been living with my brother and helping him out with his kids. I went from being a single 27 year old with being able to do whatever I wwanted when ever I wanted to having two young kids who need my love and watch care. Because of being an aunt since I was 11, two younger siblings, a ed degree and working in children facilities that I would be ready for what laid ahead.
Man, was I wrong. It is completely different from babysitting, or working in a day care. You have to catter to their every need. I am walking dead on my feet from being up since five because of work, and then coming home to clean the house and cook their meal and all I want to do is go to chill and watch TV or read a book, and I can't, I have to put the needs of my family first.
But as I was crying myself to sleep I found myself crying to God saying "Why have you forgotten me? What have I done to deserve this life? I have do not know what I am doing? Do you listen to my countless and endless prayers? Are you there? Do you love me? Will I ever find someone who will love me for me?" And much much more.
Yesterday I decided I was going to find someone from my bishopric to give me a preisthood blessing. Two members of my bishopric did me the honor. And in that blessing I received the exact answers I was looking for. Through the power of the priesthood I was reminded that I am loved by a Eternal Being. I was reminded that I am wanted and needed, and that He is aware of what I am going through. I was told that I will be blessed for my sacrifice and that I am where I am supposed to be right now. Much more that was said in the blessing that is of great significance to me right now.
I was also surrounded by His all encompassing and overwhelming love. I felt His love wrap around me and speak to me that everything will be alright. That I am loved and needed and that He is aware of what I am going through in my life. He answered my fervent prayers and healed my broken heart from the night before. I have a renewed testimony that He does in fact listen to my constant prayers.
D&C 121:7-8, leap to mind with what I am feeling right now:
7 My son,
8 And then, if thou a endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy b foes.
These words of the Lord to the Prophet Joseph have become my own. The Lord did deliver peace unto my soul. He reminded me of the constant and all emcompassing love that He has for me. I know He loves me. I know He loves me more than I will ever understand in this life. I am a Daughter of a King. And I know this becuase of the power of the Priesthood is alive and well on the earth.God has truly given His power to man on earth to act in His name. I know this to be true.
Friday, 18 April 2014
It is alright to make mistakes!!!!
I know it has been a few weeks since my last post but I have been super buy with helping out my brother around the house. I am learning a lot about the importance of patience and of trust. I am learning that it is alright to make mistakes when you are raising kids.
There are times when I have gotten mad at the kids over the silliest things. But I learned from those mistakes. I learned what for me really pushes my buttons. What my triggers are and in a way how to avoid them. I am learning so much as to what it means to be patient. If you know me you know that I am a very stubborn and impatient person. I am one who has to have things done my way. If something goes wrong no matter what it is it is my job to fix it. I will take over when it is not my job. It is my Redd and Scottish stubbornness rolled into one. What I am learning is that it is alright for me to step back for a few moments to compose myself.
I do not have to make it a big deal every time one of the kids does something I do not think is appropriate. I must remember that in the end they are just kids. They do not know any better. They are learning from their mistakes as I am learning from mine.They are learning from their mistakes the first time where I am learning from mine again and again.
Some of my mistakes are always the same. I seem to make the same mistakes over and over again. And I guess that means that I still have to learn from these things. I must learn to step back. I must remember to take a breath. I have learned some things that help me. Some of these things are
1) I sing a hymn, usually one that focuses on the Savior to remind me why I am helping my brother.
2) I write in my journal. I have been writing in a journal every night for many years now. This is where I get out everything that is troubling me and stressing me out.
3) I read a book that helps me escape from the life I am experiencing right now
4) I read the scriptures to help me remember that Heavenly Father loves me and is aware of what I am going through.
5) I say fervent prayers that allow My Fathers will and my will to come into alignment. It allows me to feel of the love that he has for me and the peace that is brought by the knowledge that I am a child of a King
6) I attend the Temple of My Lord, where I learn of the things not of this world. Where I learn of my fullest potential and who I really am.
7) I also remember just to pause and take a breath before I say anything.
I may not always remember to do these things. I may fail to calm down, and get stressed out with the kids. They may get mad at me, but young kids are quick to forgive. That is one thing that we as adults must learn.We must learn to be as quick to forgive as they are. I get mad at them and with in minutes they have completely forgotten and are say "Amy, I love you.", I apologize and they say, "That's okay, I forgive you." After that I cannot stay mad at them. and in the end they are just kids who are learning right from wrong. Just like the rest of us. No wonder the Savior taught us in Matthew 18:3-4:
There are times when I have gotten mad at the kids over the silliest things. But I learned from those mistakes. I learned what for me really pushes my buttons. What my triggers are and in a way how to avoid them. I am learning so much as to what it means to be patient. If you know me you know that I am a very stubborn and impatient person. I am one who has to have things done my way. If something goes wrong no matter what it is it is my job to fix it. I will take over when it is not my job. It is my Redd and Scottish stubbornness rolled into one. What I am learning is that it is alright for me to step back for a few moments to compose myself.
I do not have to make it a big deal every time one of the kids does something I do not think is appropriate. I must remember that in the end they are just kids. They do not know any better. They are learning from their mistakes as I am learning from mine.They are learning from their mistakes the first time where I am learning from mine again and again.
Some of my mistakes are always the same. I seem to make the same mistakes over and over again. And I guess that means that I still have to learn from these things. I must learn to step back. I must remember to take a breath. I have learned some things that help me. Some of these things are
1) I sing a hymn, usually one that focuses on the Savior to remind me why I am helping my brother.
2) I write in my journal. I have been writing in a journal every night for many years now. This is where I get out everything that is troubling me and stressing me out.
3) I read a book that helps me escape from the life I am experiencing right now
4) I read the scriptures to help me remember that Heavenly Father loves me and is aware of what I am going through.
5) I say fervent prayers that allow My Fathers will and my will to come into alignment. It allows me to feel of the love that he has for me and the peace that is brought by the knowledge that I am a child of a King
6) I attend the Temple of My Lord, where I learn of the things not of this world. Where I learn of my fullest potential and who I really am.
7) I also remember just to pause and take a breath before I say anything.
I may not always remember to do these things. I may fail to calm down, and get stressed out with the kids. They may get mad at me, but young kids are quick to forgive. That is one thing that we as adults must learn.We must learn to be as quick to forgive as they are. I get mad at them and with in minutes they have completely forgotten and are say "Amy, I love you.", I apologize and they say, "That's okay, I forgive you." After that I cannot stay mad at them. and in the end they are just kids who are learning right from wrong. Just like the rest of us. No wonder the Savior taught us in Matthew 18:3-4:
3 And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little achildren, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.
4 Whosoever therefore shall ahumble himself as this little bchild, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
I am learning a lot of my limits as far as what my buttons are. But I am also learning my strengths. I also know that Father is also blessing me for my service. He is giving me the strength that I need to get through what I am going through. It is not easy to work full time and then to take care of two kids. But I know that My Father is watching out for me and is giving me the stamina that I need.
I know that it is alright to make mistakes and that we learn more from our mistakes than our successes. Our mistakes is how we learn best about who we are and what our strengths and weaknesses are. Our mistakes allow us to learn about the atonement of Christ and what we need to do to return to Our Father. Through our mistakes we can turn to Our Father in repentance. We learn about who we our from our mistakes. I am a firm believer that we learn so much more from our mistakes than we do from our successes.
And The Savior will help us through those mistakes. He will lift us up and carry us through our trials, Our trials make us stronger and help us return to Our Father in Heaven.
Friday, 21 February 2014
Changes Everyday!!
Without this gospel in my life, the things I have gone through would have overwhelmed me. But I know that because of the Atonement of Jesus Christ that I was brought higher through those trials of life, and many of them have become tender mercies. Who would of ever thought that losing a sister to Skin Cancer and a sister in law to a freak accident could turn out to be such great and marvelous blessings in disguise.
This year is going to be a major year of change for me. I have decided will be a year of change physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. At almost 27, I am going through something in which I am gaining a lot of patience and learning what it means to place someone elses' life before mine own. I am learning to trust in my Savior and allowing Him to guide me and lead me by His hand. And that takes a lot of humility. To forget what you want and only seek what his will is in my life.
I have also decided to go back to school in September because I feel that it is the right thing for me to do right now. I am also going to change my eating habits. I have found that eating fresh and less processed foods that I feel the best. And do you know what that means? I will be trying my hand at going vegan/ vegetarian. I am not doing it to make a stand against animal treatment. I am doing this because when I eat fresh food that I have made I feel better. My mind can think clearer, and I just over all feel better.
Spiritually, I am going to spend more time in the Holy Scriptures. More time in solemn and fervent prayer. Attend the temple more often, and spend less time distracted by this ever technology filled world.
I urge each of us to remember the Lord's goodness to us each day. And if you are willing to open your eyes you will see more blessings than you will ever be able to handle in your life. He is there in our lives helping us along the way. Especially when we are going through trial. Taking one step or one day at a time to change is the key. It is not necessary to be perfect today or even next month. As long as you are progressing that is the most important steps. Try and be better tomorrow than you were today, and if you fail try again tomorrow.
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