It is alright to make mistakes!!!!

I know it has been a few weeks since my last post but I have been super buy with helping out my brother around the house. I am learning a lot about the importance of patience and of trust. I am learning that it is alright to make mistakes when you are raising kids.

There are times when I have gotten mad at the kids over the silliest things. But I learned from those mistakes. I learned what for me really pushes my buttons. What my triggers are and in a way how to avoid them. I am learning so much as to what it means to be patient. If you know me you know that I am a very stubborn and impatient person. I am one who has to have things done my way. If something goes wrong no matter what it is it is my job to fix it. I will take over when it is not my job. It is my Redd and Scottish stubbornness rolled into one. What I am learning is that it is alright for me to step back for a few moments to compose myself.

I do not have to make it a big deal every time one of the kids does something I do not think is appropriate. I must remember that in the end they are just kids. They do not know any better. They are learning from their mistakes as I am learning from mine.They are learning from their mistakes the first time where I am learning from mine again and again.

Some of my mistakes are always the same. I seem to make the same mistakes over and over again. And I guess that means that I still have to learn from these things. I must learn to step back. I must remember to take a breath. I have learned some things that help me. Some of these things are

1) I sing a hymn, usually one that focuses on the Savior to remind me why I am helping my brother.
2) I write in my journal. I have been writing in a journal every night for many years now. This is   where I get out everything that is troubling me and stressing me out.
3) I read a book that helps me escape from the life I am experiencing right now
4) I read the scriptures to help me remember that Heavenly Father loves me and is aware of what I am going through.
5) I say fervent prayers that allow My Fathers will and my will to come into alignment. It allows me to feel of the love that he has for me and the peace that is brought by the knowledge that I am a child of a King
6) I attend the Temple of My Lord, where I learn of the things not of this world. Where I learn of my fullest potential and who I really am.
7) I also remember just to pause and take a breath before I say anything.

I may not always remember to do these things. I may fail to calm down, and get stressed out with the kids. They may get mad at me, but young kids are quick to forgive. That is one thing that we as adults must learn.We must learn to be as quick to forgive as they are. I get mad at them and with in minutes they have completely forgotten and are say "Amy, I love you.", I apologize and they say, "That's okay, I forgive you." After that I cannot stay mad at them. and in the end they are just kids who are learning right from wrong. Just like the rest of us. No wonder the Savior taught us in Matthew 18:3-4:

 3 And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little ^achildren, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

 4 Whosoever therefore shall ^ahumble himself as this little ^bchild, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

I am learning a lot of my limits as far as what my buttons are. But I am also learning my strengths.  I also know that Father is also blessing me for my service. He is giving me the strength that I need to get through what I am going through. It is not easy to work full time and then to take care of two kids. But I know that My Father is watching out for me and is giving me the stamina that I need.

I know that it is alright to make mistakes and that we learn more from our mistakes than our successes. Our mistakes is how we learn best about who we are and what our strengths and weaknesses are. Our mistakes allow us to learn about the atonement of Christ and what we need to do to return to Our Father. Through our mistakes we can turn to Our Father in repentance. We learn about who we our from our mistakes. I am a firm believer that we learn so much more from our mistakes than we do from our successes. 

And The Savior will help us through those mistakes. He will lift us up and carry us through our trials, Our trials make us stronger and help us return to Our Father in Heaven.