Powerful Prayer

I have had a rough few days emotionally. They have been incredibly overwhelming to the point where I broke down and cried. I felt like my life was falling apart and that there was nothing I could do to control it. My husband and I are living in my parents basement, I still don't have a job to go too, I don't know when we are going to move out, and then some more personal problems. Last night it all seemed to hit at once.

I cried, and wept into my pillow and by my husband not knowing what to do. I was so confused spiritually and I didn't know what to do. My husband even gave my a Priesthood Blessing, and the overwhelming nature of the situation was so much that it seeemed to me that it didn't even work. Blair and I laid down for bed and I figured out that I was comparing myself to others happiness and their joy. He reminded that on the outside everyone's life seems perfect, but I never know what is happening on the side I can't see. My husband also reminded me that I have been under a lot of stress and that I must calm down or that I will start going down a path I didn't want to go. I was so hurt and frustrated that I didn't wanted to say the evening prayer for our couples prayer. I was lying in bed, not being able to sleep and was away in "Amy-land". When I finally realized that I needed to pray. My pride got in the way that I didn't feel the need to pray.

I left our bed and kneeled to pray in the bathroom. I poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father. As I was pouring out my soul I felt a "blanket" of peace roll over me. I felt that everything will work out and that it is in His Hands. That is not the easiest answer.

Last night I felt like my faith in his plan was wavering but this morning I feel like I can get through the day. This morning I went on a walk down in the river valley in Medicine Hat. I was in my calm place, where you can see and hear nature all around you. I was sitting down there by the river and I started praying again. This time for the faith in my Heavenly Fathers plan for us. It is not the easiest thing to have faith in his plan, but it takes faith to take those needed steps in th darkness.

I know that Heavenly Father is watching out for us and is protecting us. I know that He has promised me many things and that I will receive many things if I remain faihtful. I am more blessed than I know and realize. And I am loved by a wonderful man who loves and supports me. He hurts when I hurt. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have him for a husband. I am so grateful that he is worthy of his priesthood so that he can give me a blessing when I am in despair.