Learning new things

I know it has been awhile since I have written last, but here I am again. I would love to use the excuse that I have been incredibly busy and that I have had no time to write. But my only excuse is that I have been lazy. I have been awful at writing in my journal since I have gotten married. And I have also been lazy at keeping up with my blog.  I feel that I have just gotten more and more lazy in my down time as late. I wish I did more constructive things to pass the time. When I am not working, I normally sit around and watch Netflix or I am reading. I would like to improve so many things in life, but I find myself just getting distracted.

I find that I get distracted so easily in life. I start working on a crotchet project then while I am working, I get sucked in to a new show, and the next thing I know it is five episodes later, and I have the same amount of crocheting done. It is no farther along. And then I am just too lazy to continue. I have the hardest time staying focused on a project. There are many projects that I have started and I have never finished because it gets to hard or to complicated. Why do I stop when it gets hard. I ask myself time and time again why I get bored. And it is not that I do not enjoy the project, it is more I get distracted. and then distraction will turn to forgetting.

I need to improve one not getting distracted by the things of the world. I need to get better at turning off the internet and focusing more on the things of a better world.  I need to focus more on the things of a better world. I need to prepare for my future. I need to learn how to improve my sewing abilities. Blair and I wish to be as self sufficient as we possibly can at this point. I want to be able to save us as much money as possible. I want to be able to have the ability to have food in pantry that I have prepared myself. I want to be able to use what I make and what I prepare. I want shelves of preserved fruit and vegetables. I want home cooked meals as much as possible. I want to make my kids clothes. I want the house to be full of educational toys and activities so they will have room to grow and become better. I want to give my future children every opportunity. I want to be self sufficient. And I cannot do this by sitting around all day and watching Netflix and reading books about fantasy worlds (even though there will always be a time for that).

I know that this wish will take us time. And that these goals that I have for myself will take time and practice. And the best time and place to start is to start now. I can pick a few skills at a time and work on them. Then when I have those perfected I start the process all over again. I know it will take a lot of time and patience (that at times I know I do not have). I can improve and I can learn new skills.